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|Tuesday, July 15th, 2008|
|My Nipples Hurt! LOL!
Seven pounds seven and a half ounces...
So blonde his hair is almost white!
And he doesn't look like either of my men. He looks like me!
This way we can let him grow with two fathers and neither knowing, for now at least, who is the "real" father.
He is growing up with more love than I ever had as a child.
Mom loves him. And I think she's already more than made up for the love I didn't get at that time.
Being a Mom makes you more forgiving some times!
|Monday, June 9th, 2008|
|Any Day Now
I am about to POP!
There has been some LOWS and some HIGHS...
Threeways with two men are work.
Two men who were primarily into men...
It has been worth it!
Sorry I haven't been posting. I should have.
I kick myself for not the fact that I haven't recorded all we've been through.
|Saturday, November 3rd, 2007|
I am still with the bois.
I don't know which of them is the father.
That is a good thing.
And scared shitless...
|Monday, December 25th, 2006|
|Merry Christmas - I am Alive
Merry Christmas, Happy Holiday, Happy Chananakah, Happy Kwanzaa, Bright Yule and anything else I am missing.
I am alive and so sorry I have not read my f'list or commented.
The boys and I are doing well, but things got a little shaky and I still have not written about it and I need to. I will. We had to define what our relationship is, in a way we would all be happy, and my mind got expanded. But I think theirs did too, especially Toby.
Last night was beautiful. We went to The Plaza, a famous area of Kansas City, and looked at all the gorgeous lights and took a carriage ride all around and boggled the driver, but he had the total class not to say anything. The boys insisted that I be in the middle, but after a while I insisted Toby be in the middle. I am growing and I NEED this to work.
We made beautiful love last night. And I told the boys what their major Christmas present is.
I am off the pill.
Whew. Crying here. This is a big step. They cried and made love to me again. We don't want a paternity test. That is putting the cart before the horse though, heh?
They are asleep, all spooned hot and gorgeous and when I looked at them together I started crying again. As soon as I am done here, I am making biscuits and sausage gravy. Screw calories and carbs!
Mom is coming for dinner, and I hope things won't be tense. She is asking questions and I am trying to be gentle and ease this on her. She can be pretty conservative. I don't know what the consequences could be.
I will trust in God and the Universe that all will be well.
Love to you all!
|Tuesday, November 7th, 2006|
|I Promise to Post Next Week About the Halloween Party
A party that was several weeks ago.
Something happened that could have destroyed us but made us stronger instead.
This poly this isn't a breeze, but it sure has rewards...
Wait to you hear about this HOT boy at the party...
|Thursday, October 26th, 2006|
|Natural Skin Care Treatments
Most people won't care about this, but it matters to me. So therefor I am putting it behind a lj cut. Some cool information here and I wanted to share it if you are interested at all. I am going to try some of this? For those of you who do care and have maybe even given me some tips, maybe you have an opinion? ( Read more...Collapse )
My only confusion is how to know where to find the specified supplements and how to know which toners and creams with the recommended "ingredients." They don't recommended ANY brands... So am I supposed to take my magnifying glass to the drug store and read the ingredients on all the countless creams and toners till find the right stuff???
Just what the hell IS perricone? Where do I find it??
|Sunday, October 22nd, 2006|
|My FIRST Poll Ever -- Please Take It!
Hey, this is Sheenah... Would you mind taking my poll? I wanna see if I should continue this farshlugginer thing...
Do you Read my journal?
Yes, I do, I just don't comment often
Yes, I do, I just never comment, sorry
Yes, I do, and I comment you silly girl
I read it when I have the chance, but don't often have the chance to read my f'list
No, never. It's a miracle I even saw your poll
Comment?? I just have a journal to get people to comment on ME! I don't even read journals
Rarely, I just friended you so you could see my nudes
Sheenah, I am just too busy, I hardly ever check my f'list and wen I do, there is no time to comment
OTHER (please comment to explain)
|Saturday, October 14th, 2006|
|What a Pleasant Evening
...we just watched Finding Nemo
and now we are going to watch Nightmare Before Christmas
. I took a minute to sneak here and Toby is making popcorn. It is my night to be in the middle and I am going to enjoy every minute of it.
Turn the lights down low... I wish there were romantic bi movies...
I'm in love...
I said it!
I am in love!
|Friday, October 13th, 2006|
|So Halloween Is Around the Corner...
...and I am so excited. The condo is all decorated with all three of our decorations. Me, a Halloween feind, and of course I should have know that two "fags" would LOVE the holiday as well and have a ton of stuff... Put mine to shame. We are also haveing a little get-together and I ran to Walgreens and got these fun Gothteenie glasses! I just wish I could find the shaker!
We are going to go as Adam and Eve and Steve. Silly, I know, but lots of fun! It was that or the three brides of Dracula and I didn't want my HOT men to pretend they were girls. I am wearing a body suit with lots of pretty leaves on it and they won't be wearing much! **pitter**pat**
We are going to have some fun games and a contest. Having the party next Friday night so as not to compete with the other parties. I wish I would have realized today was Friday the 13th. What a perfect day that would have been to throw a Halloween party!
|Friday, September 29th, 2006|
|Had Something Funny Happen Today at Work...
Toby came by and took me out to lunch. We went to Jerusalem Cafe and I had a gyro, it was wonderful and somehow romantic. LOL! I don't know why, it just was. He even bought me a rose from this girl on the street. Kissed me big time, but not gross, no one yelled, "Get a room!" Then he took me back to work...
Gave me a kiss in the car and a few people saw and waved, and Gloria, this girl I work with, came up and I introduced them. Toby charmed her hose off! Inside Gloria told me how lucky I was, just as we were passing the receptionist. Anyway, Candy (the receptionist, and yes, that IS her name), stopped me with a, "Oh, Sheenah! Your boyfriend called while you were out to lunch. He said he was in the field and you didn't need to call back, and (**wink**wind**), he wuuuuvs
I laughed and said, "I seriously doubt John said, 'wuv.'"
"OK," she says, "I sorta added that part. But he did say he loved you."
I smiled and turned and almost slammed into Gloria. "B-b-b-b-b-but I thought TOBY was your boyfriend!"
I guess I blushed (will have to stop that-at least in this kind of case). "He is."
"Then who is Toby??????" (did you catch all those question marks? I
sure as shit did!
"He's my boyfriend too."
Her eyes really WERE as big a saucers! "Does John know????"
I leaned close. "Yes," I sorta whispered (why???????). "We all live together." I didn't know what else TO say. I couldn't lie about the men I adore. She looked frozen, like the Medusa had turned her to stone or something! Then she grinned.
"You lucking bitch!" she whispered back. "My boyfriend can't hope to keep up with me! "You lucking fucking
LOL! What a DAY!!!
|Tuesday, August 29th, 2006|
|I Got This WAY Bizarre Call Today...
...it was from some man who was WAY pissed that I am with John and Toby. He says that the ONLY reason they are with me is that Toby wants a kid. He said I was a whore for getting into their relationship, and he thought it was disgusting. That I was some ultimate fag hag.
I started to reply. I started to tell him he was full of shit. There was this surge of anger in me that wanted to lash out at him.
And then I thought of them making love to me... The holding and cuddling.
And I knew this anonymous asshole wasn't worth the bother. I thought of my Mother who always knew how to be classy in every situation.
Then I told him that I was sterile.
Was that petty?
I told him I was sorry that this upset him so much and wished him all the best.
I am not going to tell John and Toby about this. Why upset them.
I know I am loved and that is all that matters. Now, to get back to dinner!
They will be home soon!
|Sunday, August 27th, 2006|
|Had a Wonderful Time Last Night...
...Toby and John took me to a party. OLD friend of John's. And they decided it was time for us to "come out." People were shocked. Especially John's friend. He knew John was bi, but people really are prejudiced about the couple thing. Two people is okay, but three isn't. One cute female came to me and gushed about how jealous she was and wanted to know if I like watching my men play together, which I of course said YES!
Toby and I got pretty buzzed and John, designated driver, took us home and banged the hell out of both of us. It was amazing! Then Toby, who usually won't go down on me, ate me out like crazy. When it has those dick connotations, he goes berserk. Loves to eat John's deposits for a loooong time. I must have cum twice in ten minutes.
I am in love. God, I hope I don't get hurt, but I love these men and they seem to mean it when they say the love me.
They keep giggling about something. They've got something up their sleeve! I can't wait to see what!
Toby is soooooo sweet and John is like our protector. There is this almost sister thing going on (when we aren't fucking) with Toby, and a father/protector with John.
I love it. Toby is soooooo smooth and slim and tight, and John is very very hairy and more muscular. I am getting wet thinking about them...be right back...
...back now. I just had to go into the bedroom and look at their tangled naked bodies. I don't know if there is ANYTHING more hot!
|Friday, August 25th, 2006|
|Just Wanted You to Know That I Am Alive and VERY Well
I don't have a lot of time right now, but I will write soon.
John and Toby and I are together. It seems impossible, but it is true. We are. We moved out of our apartments and into a three bedroom condo. We each have our own room and sometimes we sleep alone! LOL!
I am with two gay men. Except they aren't as gay as they thought they were. That caused good and bad things to happen to all three of us, but now things are working pretty darned well.
I am soooooo happy.
Tonight the boys are away on a date. And they get alone time tonight. Tomorrow they are taking me out to a party and then home. They promise something fun and sexy. Last Saturday night they took me to sent Rent
, the play. OMG! It was amazing! And I went to a musical with men! Men! And we sang songs all the way home! **sigh** Men who aren't afraid to love musicals!
Things are wonderful. I am happy.There is no future
There is no past
I live this moment as my last
There's only us
There's only this
Or life is yours to miss
No other road
No other way
No day but today...cross posted to bi_people and sexandlust
|Tuesday, May 30th, 2006|
|Well, I Spent the Night with Toby and John Again...
...goddess, a girl could fall in love.
We have a lot in common too, besides loving sex. I look at my journal and people must think I'm just a pervert, but I'm not, really.
WOW, last night!
Did I say veal parmesan? It was chicken parmesan and, WOW, can John cook! Luckily I had a couple of bottles of wine (every time I see clearance sales I buy at least a couple of bottles for just such occasions). The food was totally amazing. I mean, Toby can cook! Believe me! But John is like a chef or something.
So we ate and watched X2 of all things and cuddled. And not me in the middle! BIG couch and me laying back in Toby's arms and him back in John's and John caressing us both, and Toby caressing me and John as much as he can with me laying against me, and ditto me touching them. Those masculine legs and arms around me... HEAVEN! ( Read more...Collapse )
|Monday, May 29th, 2006|
I haven't mentioned this male couple that moved into the apartment next to mine. They are very nice and sweet and good neighbors and sexy as heck. I wasn't sure if they were a couple at first... They both flirted with me. And I mean FLIRTED! Major-ly. More than the fun sweet flirting that gay men will do.
I had them over a few weeks ago for a drinkie. They once again were flirting and making nice comments about my outfit and such. I bent over the table to give them their cocktails and realized that both were staring down my cleavage. And to my embarrassment, one came back from the bathroom with one of my gay porn mags. I'd been... Well, never mind. Anyway, they asked if I thought gay sex was hot and I told them the only thing I thought was hotter was bi men. I told them about my bad experience with the boyfriend who sailed off for gay land, but how the sex I'd had with him and another man had been about the hottest in my entire life.
So they start getting affectionate with each other. Nothing tacky, but snuggling and little kisses and I told them how their flirting had made me think they might be straight. And they told me they were bi. Extremely bi!
So, anyway, we all got friendlier... They had me over for dinner and last weekend we went to see The DaVinci Code and we watched LOST this week as well. And they get more and more...sexual with each other in front of me and I tell you, the ( Read more...Collapse )
|Sunday, March 12th, 2006|
|Saturday, January 14th, 2006|
|Laura Bush Sees Woman President in Future
Updated: 06:49 AM EST
By DEB RIECHMANN, AP
WASHINGTON (Jan. 13) - Laura Bush predicted on Friday that the United States soon will have a female president - a Republican, and maybe even Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice. "I think it will happen for sure," Mrs. Bush said about a woman in the Oval Office.
She made the comment in a CNN interview broadcast on Friday, the day before she leaves for Liberia to attend the inauguration of the first female president in Africa.
"I think it will happen probably in the next few terms of the presidency in the United States," Mrs. Bush said.
Rice has said she has no desire to be president when President Bush's second term expires, but Mrs. Bush said: "I'd love to see her run. She's terrific."
Mrs. Bush leaves Saturday night for Africa where she will visit Ghana and Nigeria to promote education and AIDS treatment after leading the U.S. delegation attending the swearing-in of Liberia's President-elect Ellen Johnson-Sirleaf on Monday in Monrovia.
Rice is part of the delegation, as is one of the president's daughters, Barbara, who worked recently at a pediatric AIDS hospital in South Africa. "She's interested in the policy surrounding AIDS and what we can do in our country and in other countries around the world to really stop AIDS," Mrs. Bush said.
During the 13-minute interview in the Map Room of the White House, Mrs. Bush talked about how she and the president try to comfort the families of fallen U.S. troops by saying that their service in the armed forces is helping to establish a stable democracy in the Middle East.
In another gesture of consolation, Mrs. Bush said that on Thursday she called to offer encouragement to the wife of Supreme Court nominee Samuel Alito, Martha-Ann Bomgardner, who left her husband's testy Senate confirmation hearing in tears, eliciting sympathy from senators of both parties.
"I think it's very important for the Senate to have a very civil and respectful hearing for anyone that has been nominated for the Supreme Court or for the other jobs that require Senate confirmation," Mrs. Bush said.
"But on the other hand, my family has been in politics for a long time and I think you do develop a thick skin. Does it ever not hurt? You know, not really."
1/13/2006 20:11 EST
Copyright 2006 The Associated Press. The information contained in the AP news report may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or otherwise distributed without the prior written authority of The Associated Press. All active hyperlinks have been inserted by AOL.You know, I try to like this woman. I don't know why. I loathe her husband, although I try not to hate anyone. Condoleezza Rice??? Oh, for God's sake!
|Friday, January 13th, 2006|
|Kansas City Opinions...
Hey...there was an article today in the Kansas City Star that sorta surprised me. It was about Brokeback Mountain and the opinions of the residents... Seems they asked people to email their opinions....
Some were just wonderful and some downright horrified me. I think the fact that recently I was sort of a Alma Del Mar myself, I COULD have every right to be bitter. I was afraid I wasn't even going to be able to watch the movie again, but I went today (2nd time) and still bawled like a baby. I had more sympathy for the wives (not that I didn't before) and that made me cry as well, but I won't go on about that. It is all in my journal entry yesterday and I don't want to bore you. I guess the nastiness of some of the comments actually gave me some healing. I know I just don't want to be that kind of a person...
The point of this post was about the opinion's of Kansas City emailers. I am NOT going to post the names and locations of the people who hated the movie or said mean or even cruel things. I know fans and they'll track these people down and give them what for, and I don't want to be the cause of that!
What really amazed me is there are some statistics that went with the article and it showed a great deal of the people said the movie was bad, but hadn't even seen it! And sad that were some who were gay and married and asked that their letters not be published... Made me cry again!
SO... Here are some of them..."'Brokeback Mountain' is a 'Gone With the Wind' for the 21st century."Tim Molthan - Kansas City"It's totally disgusting and offensive."You Don't Care What His Name Is - Platte City
Isn't that sad? What a homophobe. And what is really sad is he very well could be an Ennis who longs for the love of a Jack, but would rather turn that longing into hatred..."I know people may be scared away by the seemingly gay context, but I don't think that is what the movie is about. It is about two people who love each other but cannot be together -- something that many love stories are based around."Megan Thomas - Olathe( More people's thoughts if you are interested, and some are quite poignant...Collapse )
|Thursday, January 12th, 2006|
|Should We Leave Our Fantasies JUST Be Fantasies...
I don't know if ANYONE reads my journal but...
What a disaster! I think my sexual fantasies have gotten the better of me and it's time for Mama's Girl to get her feet back on the ground.
So this guy I'm dating, "R," pretty hot, hot a whole
lot between the ears but at least he has some
interests besides football and bowling ... And he's not bad in bed .. And what's majorly important, he has these bisexual fantasies and I think I will finally, finally get some REAL LIFE slash! Finally! I've fantasized about this since I was like 16 or something!
So we go out for New Years and we are having a real good time. He's in a mood to dance and he's pretty good dancer and how hard is it to find a straight (ish) man who can dance or likes to dance??? We decide to go to this lesbian bar that attracts a lot of straight people and gay men. Weird lesbian bar, huh?
We are having a BLAST and flirting and he is turning me on big time and he knows it and tries to turn me on even more by flirting with men. There are a couple hotties who are obviously into him and they know he's WITH me, and not just hanging with me (he keeps frenching me). He asks me which one I like and I tell him, this blond with a real hairy chest and thick sweaty arm pits. He's wearing this really skinny tank top and has these big brown nipples, at least the size of quarters, which means he has a lot of my big weaknesses...
So now "R" is really
flirting with this guy and the guy is flirting back with both of us
!!! And soon the three of us are DIRTY DANCING!! I mean, WOW! At one point my bf is bumping my butt and then he is bumping this guy's butt! I mean, just grinding and time just seemed to blur and it was midnight and by bf kisses me like I haven't been kissed in a LONG LONG time and then he looks back and forth between me and this guy and I nod and then he kisses him!!!!
You won't believe this, but I came!
And then ... And then ...
And then we took this guy home with us!
Now. let me say there were alarms going off in my head ... Mamma's Voice was wailing, "What are you doing, Sheenah?????"
And I was thinking, "Do you really want to take this step???"
But I did. And it was hot!
I finally got to see men have sex!!!!
And NOTHING prepared me for how HOT that was. SCORCHING! If I lying, I'm dying!
But mostly for me it was just watching. Which was okay, really. I was wanting a little more, but it was like hovering in the midst of a slash story...
See, the other guy was false advertising. He wasn't really bi at all. He just wanted my bf.
Now I don't blame Rob at all. He was scared and excited and nervous and dealing with all those old tapes from his religious parents telling him what he was doing was evil. He was so afraid that first time to just touch that man's throbbing leaking erection!!! And the first time he licked it! And the first time he took the head in his mouth (I came again, believe it or not, just at the sight and wasn't really even touching myself)
He looked at me all scared and excited and I was all smiling encouragement and he LOVES porn so I actually (groan) started talking kinda dirty and ...
That was it!!!!!!
Rob was INTO it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He went CRAZY!!! Snorting and sucking his penis and rooting around in this guy's sweaty low hanging balls and scrotum like a pig digging for truffles.
It was SO hot! I came a whole lot of times so I can't really
But still these alarms were going off...
Not just about how much he was getting into it ...
... But ... Was this me??? Threeways and stuff???? Was this Sheenah???
Was Mama's Girl going too far???
And when Rob sucked down that man's cum like ti was his favorite all time desert ... I mean ... It was his first time! Warning lights were flashing even then. Not that I didn't believe it was his first time. I do. But ti takes most women quite awhile to get used to that taste and texture. I thought I'd puke the first time...
And Rob f*cked the guy, which was also way hot, but I had to remind them to use condoms for God's sake! But it was HOT to watch!
Rob was all a buzz the next day and we cuddled a lot and when we had sex that night it was pretty good. I even let him do me doggy style.
And then we got busy and he didn't come over for over a week...
And then I find out he's been with the guy all week...
He's been f*cked. He PROMISED me I would be there when he last his virginity that way and he said he just couldn't. He was too shy or some-damn-thing. It was "too personal."
And maybe I can get that, you know? And we aren't going steady. We agreed we could see others. But he promised!
And he let the guy f*ck him without a condom!!!! Can you believe that? In THIS day and age? But he said he wanted to know what it felt like...to have ... you know ... semen inside him... He felt it wouldn't be real any other way. Will it feel "real" if he gets AIDS???
And he thinks he might be in-love with this guy...
But he still cares for me...
But I don't know if I care, you know?
I think I just got in too deep.
I crossed a line I shouldn't have crossed.
All these people cross it all the time and have rich fulfilled lives... I thought I could also. It appealed to me. Maybe I still can...
But I don't know that I want to anymore.
I think slash is just supposed to be a fantasy for me... Not real.
I loved being there first hand and seeing ti all in glorious 3-D Technicolor. But I think I'll stick to regular hetero guys just for me.
Hopefully one who won't mind my love of slash.
I've been afraid to read any for a couple of days now... What if I have some flash back or it squicks me now???? Slash has brought me so much enjoyment.
Is it too late to go back to being Mamma's little girl?
I think I'll let my membership go to those communities with male nudes and stuff... That would be a good start...
I'll let you know what happens... Current Mood: confused